Today was one of the happiest moments of my life! Lately things have been a little more than a roller coaster ride. Lincoln has made all the hard moments seem rather meaningless. With each new thing he learns, it brings a pride and joy that is unexplainable.
Over the last six months, I have been working 30+ hours a week while being a full time mom and wife. I thought I was handling it well until I started collapsing from lack of sleep and energy. I have been getting hurt a lot lately from my falls, and it feels like almost every day I show up with a new black eye or bruise. I have been trying so hard to stay strong, but there are so many days when it takes everything for me to continue on.
One night after work I was found unconscious in my truck that I had crashed into a telephone pole. My truck is sadly completely demolished; the engine was inside the cab of the truck. I was lucky enough to only suffer minor injuries and whiplash from the airbag. When they were pulling my unconscious body from the scene, one of the paramedics began crying. He had seen my bruised body one other time, and he knew I was in some serious trouble. After returning from the hospital, he reached out to me and asked if there was anything he could do to help. I'm not going to go into the details, but this man was a huge blessing from God.
After all this, Scott asked me to quit my job for the next month, and I have been trying to be healthier. These last few months have been incredibly hard on Scott and I’ve tried to stay positive, but sometimes it seems like we can never get on top of the medical bills. I feel like I am this huge burden on him, and I'm so thankful that he has been there for me while we sort things out.
Tonight, while getting Lincoln ready for bed, I was signing “I love you” to him. He looked at me and signed it and then leaned forward and kissed me on the lips. I got all teary eyed and looked at Scott and said “He loves me!”. Scott just laughed, but it was one of those moments I want to remember forever. I then took a bath and spent the next ten minutes crying about how selfish I have been. My life is so incredibly blessed by friends and family who love us. We have so few trials compared to those around us.
I can’t help but think that these special spirits are sent here to remind us of what is really important. I love Lincoln so much at times it literally hurts my heart. Haha! I know I am incredible cheesy, but it’s the truth!
Thanks Lincoln for teaching me how to love life!
Over the last six months, I have been working 30+ hours a week while being a full time mom and wife. I thought I was handling it well until I started collapsing from lack of sleep and energy. I have been getting hurt a lot lately from my falls, and it feels like almost every day I show up with a new black eye or bruise. I have been trying so hard to stay strong, but there are so many days when it takes everything for me to continue on.
One night after work I was found unconscious in my truck that I had crashed into a telephone pole. My truck is sadly completely demolished; the engine was inside the cab of the truck. I was lucky enough to only suffer minor injuries and whiplash from the airbag. When they were pulling my unconscious body from the scene, one of the paramedics began crying. He had seen my bruised body one other time, and he knew I was in some serious trouble. After returning from the hospital, he reached out to me and asked if there was anything he could do to help. I'm not going to go into the details, but this man was a huge blessing from God.
After all this, Scott asked me to quit my job for the next month, and I have been trying to be healthier. These last few months have been incredibly hard on Scott and I’ve tried to stay positive, but sometimes it seems like we can never get on top of the medical bills. I feel like I am this huge burden on him, and I'm so thankful that he has been there for me while we sort things out.
Tonight, while getting Lincoln ready for bed, I was signing “I love you” to him. He looked at me and signed it and then leaned forward and kissed me on the lips. I got all teary eyed and looked at Scott and said “He loves me!”. Scott just laughed, but it was one of those moments I want to remember forever. I then took a bath and spent the next ten minutes crying about how selfish I have been. My life is so incredibly blessed by friends and family who love us. We have so few trials compared to those around us.
I can’t help but think that these special spirits are sent here to remind us of what is really important. I love Lincoln so much at times it literally hurts my heart. Haha! I know I am incredible cheesy, but it’s the truth!
Thanks Lincoln for teaching me how to love life!
