Exhausted

Here is to me being completely honest……

   I am tired. Very tired. My hair looks like something out of “Edward Scissors hands,” my nice tan has faded, I smell like I haven’t showered, cause I haven’t, and the chance of me putting on makeup today or actually getting dressed is about as likely as Lincoln being potty trained.

Why am I so tired?

Simple, I am working two jobs until my 2 weeks notice is up. I am working over 55 hours a week and because I am determined to prove that work won’t affect my other responsibilities I have managed:

To keep my house spotless and kept up on all extra cleaning including the laundry, scrubbing toilets, vacuuming daily, dusting, mopping, grocery shopping and well everything in between.

And most importantly comes Lincoln. I worry so much that my working will affect his happiness that I have made sure every moment with him is special. Library, park visits, stroller rides, trampoline time and making cookies and treats together.

But then I started doing something that every mother swears not to do, allow her child to sleep in her bed.

Yep, I started that nightmare.

I hear him cry and I start thinking of all the reasons he is crying:

    He is crying because he has a horrible mom

        He doesn’t know where he is any more because he gets babysat in two different houses.

                   He misses me

                        …..sooooooooo…..

I run to his recue and hold him in my arms and take him back to bed with me because I want to snuggle with my baby and make up for the hours I was away from him.

         and the next night it happens again

                and again

                   and again

and soon I have created this sweet sleeping monster that tosses and turns and pushes me off the bed and takes my pillow and has to have his head on mine and talks in his sleep and kicks me and while he is getting plenty of sleep I am getting none.

but I can’t STOP because there is nothing more sweet than watching him sleep.

And this morning while half my body was on the bed and the other was on the night stand I realized I can’t do it anymore. After a short two weeks, I am simply too tired. So I refuse to clean, or shower or do anything but spend my day playing with Lincoln.

        Tonight is my last night at Taco Bell *sigh of relief* and things might calm down enough that I will be strong enough to leave Lincoln in his bed. Hopefully.

Sorry about me complaining! There are plenty of single moms out there that work and do it all and I honestly am in complete awe for them.

Here are some pictures of Lincoln at the park. He looks bald! haha!

 

Summer is here if you want it to be

We decided today was the start of Summer.

After playing for a while Scott disappeared into the garage.

“What are you doing?” I asked as he tried kicking my dirt bike to life.

“I am going to ride it”

“And where exactly are you planning to ride it?” I motioned to the two feet of snow surrounding our house.

“I am going to ride it in the snow” he said ignoring me rolling my eyes.

“Yea cause that makes a lot of sense” I said with my arms across my chest. At least this was going to be interesting.

15 minutes later: He instantly got stuck

“Did you really think this was going to work?” I said laughing.

“It will work. I just have to get it to the shade alright!”

In the mean time: Lincoln and I soaked up some sun in the hammock.

15 more minutes later: Scott was still determined to ride his bike in the snow.

“Will you just help me carry it to the shade?” he asked.

“Nope, I refuse to be associated with this idea.”

“But the mini wants to ride in the snow!” he begged.

“The mini wants to sit in the garage”

“No it doesn’t. You don’t know what the mini wants.”

“The mini doesn’t know what it wants, cause the mini is a bike!”

In the mean time: Lincoln and I jumped on the trampoline.

15 more minutes later: Scott was still trying to ride his dirt bike in the snow.

“I told you I could ride it in the snow” he said pushing it.

“The snow is melting faster than you’re moving”

In the mean time: Lincoln and I raced each other

15 more minutes later: Scott still thought he was riding in the snow

“I can now say I rode a dirt bike in the snow” he said proudly.

“You never rode it! Your feet didn’t even leave the ground!” I said irritated.

“You’re just mad cause you are wrong”

“You didn’t ride it! You dragged it!”

I am right, he is wrong.

Always Drain the Tub

While doing laundry Lincoln kept running from the kitchen and down the hall.

I was busy.

He was busy.

He was happy.

I was happy.

When he didn’t return one round, I went to see what he was destroying.

He decided to take a bath……. again

Along with every measuring cup in the house.

They needed cleaned anyways, they were looking dusty in my drawer.

The Whole Grain Problem

WARNING: TMI post

Now that I have been adding whole grains to our diet in an attempt to be healthier, I will admit I have over done it. 

Wednesday Dinner
Me: I made whole wheat German pancakes!
Scott: yay (said sarcastically)
Me: These are better than the original ones! Eating healthy even tastes yummier!
Scott looking grumpy: The only reason they taste better is because you dumped a cup of syrup on them. 
Me: Stop being so negative
Scott: All I do is poop now.
Me: It's healthy to poop
Scott: All the time?! I eat whole grains for breakfast, lunch, dinner and even my snacks have turned all whole grainy!
Me: Don't be so dramatic

Last nights dinner:
Me: I made whole grain soup!
Scott: This is no longer normal.
Me: It tastes waaaay good if you ignore the chunks, whole wheat flour tends to clump.
Scott: If I eat anymore whole grains I am going to turn into a cow.
Me (chewing on whole wheat garlic bread): It's healthy. 
Scott: I don't even notice when I poop!
Me: That doesn't even make sense scott.
Scott: I think you're trying to kill me!
Me: Wait til month 6 of being healthy, then you can complain
Scott looking scared: What is month 6?
Me: Hyrdrogenated oils
Scott blinking excessively: unless that involves making me constipated I refuse. 

Lunch Today:
Me(making Scott's sandwich): This is a very healthy sandwich.
Scott staring at the mayo with surprise: Whole Grain Mayo!?!?

Maybe we have too much fiber in our diet. Maybe.

“Water for Elephants” Movie

I LOVE books!

I LOVE movies!

I HATE when they make a movie out of my favorite book and ruin it!

HATE IT! HATE IT! HATE IT!

Yes, I am basically throwing a tantrum right now!

One of my favorite books ever is getting made into a movie and I am beyond angry! “Water for Elephants,” and I am terrified the movie is going to slaughter it! Not everyone has read this book, unlike freaking “Twilight” that has been read by every teenage, boy crazy, hormonal and unstable girl. Ruin THAT book, not this one. Oh wait you already ruined that book, huh.

Oh and it gets worse! Yes WORSE!

Remember how horrible the “Twilight” movies are? Remember that Robert Pattinson is the star of the movie? Remember how he can’t act and has zero personality?

He is going to be the lead role in this one too!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to die! ok, ok, I am being a little dramatic, but still I don’t want my favorite book to be ruined by “that guy”.

Thankfully Reese Witherspoon is going to be starring in it with him so I am kind of excited for that. So for all those who have never heard of the book and plan on watching the movie….. read the book first! It is amazing!

I’ll admit, there are the movies that I like better than the books, “Lord of the Rings”, “Chronicles of Narnia”, “The Notebook” to name a few. There are also the books I have read and I am excited they made movies out of them like “Harry Potter” and “Series of Unfortunate Events”.

and of course I am going to go see “Water for Elephants” in the theatre and I am hoping that it turns out to be the BEST MOVIE EVER!  I really don’t want this book to be ruined so I am crossing my fingers that the producers can pull it off!

Does anyone else feel the same about books getting made into movies?

Kolby’s Baptism

We are so proud of Kolby for getting baptized! Congrats!

“My Babies”

Whenever Lincoln wants to watch Toy Story 3 he says, “My Babies” and we get his Buzz and Woody and his Toy Story chair and he watches his movie.

                      I think it is SO adorable!